I can't stop crying..

Day and day passed... day and day i love you more... hope you aren't cheating on me... do you remember you wrote me a letter last time? You said you promise you will never walk away from me and you wanted me to be your last lover... do you still remember that?? :')

Now i can't stop crying everyday.. i even lost my appetite...
Last time, i promise you too.. i promise you i won't give up on you and i will be with you forever... maybe i take it too serious... or am i a fool to trust it easily? Are you really mean it? I really hope you do...

Some of my friends suggest me to break up with you.. but i don't want to. I really love you... and i trust you... i just don't know why i keep crying these days... yesterday i sms with you.. you said you still love me... i'm so happy to heard that :) but please, stop calling me to give up on you... i won't give up on you.. maybe I've think too much... you're my boyfriend and I should trust you :) I love you huby...♥ too bad you don't know my blog:P

You're the same.

Well, okay, lately something happened.. you regret helping your friend :)
you don't want me in danger. okay, i understand. you called me don't worry and forget you for temporary.. I understand. no texts, no missed call, i understand... i only hope you to be save.. but you called me to forget you. I may really forget you and fall for other person.

okay nevermind that. i understand you didn't find me for few days or weeks.
just now, i had a nightmare.. i dream about you.. i'd lose you... when i woke up, i caught myself crying... I'm scared... i'm really really scared... i scare that i might really lose you.. u never know how much i love you. you used to said that you won't leave me alone.. and will make me happy everyday... i believed you... but now? :) i understand..

just now, you on facebook.. you said you might meet them sooner.. so i asked you to take care.. and you said see first.. you hope to die soon... okay, this really hurt me alot... i still remember that you want us to keep sweet on forever... so you want to leave me now? now i realized that you're the same.. i'm so regret to accept love again.. i really tired of crying you know... i thought you might be different.. that u will really make me happy everyday.. but you didn't.. and you make me cry eveyday :) sorry that i love you so much..

p/s, i even crying to wrote this...