day 2

yeappp . it's day 2 that we broke up .. I keep having the same dream every night !
how to stop it ?! every time I dream about that we're still together , what we'd been through
then when i wakes up , there're tears all over my faces . what should i do ?
I'm so tired of life torturing me . why you want to make me fall so hard if you intend to leave me so fast ? you know we can just talk about it but you choose to throwing it all away . are you heartless ? or you didn't even love me from the start ? don't you miss any bit of what we had been through ? I'm now a mess . I don't know what should I do . I don't have any appetite to eat . I can't sleep at night . my mum even force me to eat but i really can't . you happy now ? seeing me like this ? now haze are everywhere in the air . I hope the end of the world coming soon . I'm so pain . there's nothing to cure it . deep inside it really hurts alot . but you intend to leave me just like this . yeah ,  i never be there when you needed someone . but thank you , for used to be mine . at least we loved , laughed , cried . tbh , i really miss those moments i spend with you .. so i guess you're starting to deleting me from your life ... I will move on someday ... but not today . someday when you found your next , and i will move on. :) soooo , just like this . the most worst I'd been hurt . yeah , by you . if you don't mean it . then you said it ? you make me trust you and it hurt really really much

so this is the last time ? i guess

Hey , I'm glad that you're reading this , dude :)
yeah okay , this is the last time I will be such a baby . i suppose
sooooo  yeap ,  we broke up yesterday.. yeah , I'm a messed now !
messy hair , messy feeling , messy mind , messy life !
I can't believe you just leave me like this .. you can't ! but you did...
remember the penguin question ? I know I do .. :')
you said we would be together forever .. so i just gave you all my heart..
because of we argue everytime over little things and you're tired ,
just like this ? ended ? relationships should fight for it !
you should know that you're the one who make me believe in forever .
but not anymore. i still remember everytime you ask me to don't leave you..
don't chat with boys .. don't EVER lose feeling on you .. I DONE THOSE.
but what did I get ? my heart broken into pieces .
you're the one who want to start the relationship . and now , you're the one
who want to end it too.. it doesn't make any sense ..
I admit , you really hurt me alot this time ..
still hanging there and don't know how to get down , YET .
I thought you are the one , the one that can be forever with .
but I was wrong , you're just the one that got away .
so i guess you're deleting me from you life now.. but i can't do the same..
my feeling for you is too big ! is all your fault !
why would want to say forever with me ? I'm a silly girl . trust whatever my love say .
and now , stuck in that rock and don't know how to get out .

I'm glad that you chat with me for the very first time ,
I'm glad I met you , I'm glad that I like you , I'm glad that you like me too ,
I'm glad that you ask me that penguin question , I'm glad that I accept you ,
I'm glad that we're together , I'm glad that we're sweet ,
I'm glad that I have you :') but now , I LOST EVERYTHING ...
because of my selfishness . I'm sorry ..

I want you to be mine again.. I miss those laugh , i miss those craziness ,
I miss those cute fights ... but in the end , I MISS YOU ..
I miss waking up having the morning texts from you ,
I miss having you texting day and night , day by day ..
I miss we making silly faces infront of each other ,
I miss everytime you hug me , I miss everything !
I miss everything about us !

I have a question that keep repeat in my mind ..
why you still want to be friend with me huh ?
hmmmm .. I hope this friendship can work it out :)
but still , I'm glad we're still friend :)
I said I'll be there until you found your next :)
Good Luck , have a great life ..

We can save this relationship .. but you choose to give up ..
just like this . 107 days relationship ended .
I don't want it to be end just like this but you want to .
and you just leave me just like this .. hanging there alone ..
It's not fair .. How do I get down ? this isn't fun at all !
but still , I hope you find your next :')
I've no more important to you .. thank you for leaving me just like this..
thank you for loving , thank you for being there when i needed someone ,
thank you for caring , thank you for everything , but most of all
thank you for breaking me into pieces :')
I will be alright :) I suppose..... I hope... :)
Can you say one last "I Love You" to me ? just for the last ..
If you don't want It's okay too ...

6th March 2013 - 21 June 2013 Ended :')