Okay .. sooo yeah . We broke up months ago but I can admit that I still like you. Memories haunt me every time . Now , few boys are chasing me and asking for my answer. I just don't know how to answer them ! I have the fear of love . Yeah it's because of you . After we broke up you can completely forget me like nothing happened between us. I admit I miss how it goes. I miss the midnight texts , the hugs , the cute fights and everything about us . I miss us. Sometimes I still cry because of the flashbacks appear in my mind. I can tell that we're not even friend now . One thing I really regret is why do I ignore you , angry every tiny things and even being so cool to you when we were still together. I thought we can be longer . Longer than just 3 months . I still miss you . I still think of you . And I still love you ... I've been trying my best to move on but I still can't . I had enough . I want to end the struggling in my heart . It's hurt.. why can't I just accept another person into my life ? I hope you can get out from my heart sooner or later ..
Wednesday, 14 August 2013
Saturday, 22 June 2013
day 2
yeappp . it's day 2 that we broke up .. I keep having the same dream every night !
how to stop it ?! every time I dream about that we're still together , what we'd been through
then when i wakes up , there're tears all over my faces . what should i do ?
I'm so tired of life torturing me . why you want to make me fall so hard if you intend to leave me so fast ? you know we can just talk about it but you choose to throwing it all away . are you heartless ? or you didn't even love me from the start ? don't you miss any bit of what we had been through ? I'm now a mess . I don't know what should I do . I don't have any appetite to eat . I can't sleep at night . my mum even force me to eat but i really can't . you happy now ? seeing me like this ? now haze are everywhere in the air . I hope the end of the world coming soon . I'm so pain . there's nothing to cure it . deep inside it really hurts alot . but you intend to leave me just like this . yeah , i never be there when you needed someone . but thank you , for used to be mine . at least we loved , laughed , cried . tbh , i really miss those moments i spend with you .. so i guess you're starting to deleting me from your life ... I will move on someday ... but not today . someday when you found your next , and i will move on. :) soooo , just like this . the most worst I'd been hurt . yeah , by you . if you don't mean it . then you said it ? you make me trust you and it hurt really really much
how to stop it ?! every time I dream about that we're still together , what we'd been through
then when i wakes up , there're tears all over my faces . what should i do ?
I'm so tired of life torturing me . why you want to make me fall so hard if you intend to leave me so fast ? you know we can just talk about it but you choose to throwing it all away . are you heartless ? or you didn't even love me from the start ? don't you miss any bit of what we had been through ? I'm now a mess . I don't know what should I do . I don't have any appetite to eat . I can't sleep at night . my mum even force me to eat but i really can't . you happy now ? seeing me like this ? now haze are everywhere in the air . I hope the end of the world coming soon . I'm so pain . there's nothing to cure it . deep inside it really hurts alot . but you intend to leave me just like this . yeah , i never be there when you needed someone . but thank you , for used to be mine . at least we loved , laughed , cried . tbh , i really miss those moments i spend with you .. so i guess you're starting to deleting me from your life ... I will move on someday ... but not today . someday when you found your next , and i will move on. :) soooo , just like this . the most worst I'd been hurt . yeah , by you . if you don't mean it . then you said it ? you make me trust you and it hurt really really much
Friday, 21 June 2013
so this is the last time ? i guess
Hey , I'm glad that you're reading this , dude :)
yeah okay , this is the last time I will be such a baby . i suppose
sooooo yeap , we broke up yesterday.. yeah , I'm a messed now !
messy hair , messy feeling , messy mind , messy life !
I can't believe you just leave me like this .. you can't ! but you did...
remember the penguin question ? I know I do .. :')
you said we would be together forever .. so i just gave you all my heart..
because of we argue everytime over little things and you're tired ,
just like this ? ended ? relationships should fight for it !
you should know that you're the one who make me believe in forever .
but not anymore. i still remember everytime you ask me to don't leave you..
don't chat with boys .. don't EVER lose feeling on you .. I DONE THOSE.
but what did I get ? my heart broken into pieces .
you're the one who want to start the relationship . and now , you're the one
who want to end it too.. it doesn't make any sense ..
I admit , you really hurt me alot this time ..
still hanging there and don't know how to get down , YET .
I thought you are the one , the one that can be forever with .
but I was wrong , you're just the one that got away .
so i guess you're deleting me from you life now.. but i can't do the same..
my feeling for you is too big ! is all your fault !
why would want to say forever with me ? I'm a silly girl . trust whatever my love say .
and now , stuck in that rock and don't know how to get out .
I'm glad that you chat with me for the very first time ,
I'm glad I met you , I'm glad that I like you , I'm glad that you like me too ,
I'm glad that you ask me that penguin question , I'm glad that I accept you ,
I'm glad that we're together , I'm glad that we're sweet ,
I'm glad that I have you :') but now , I LOST EVERYTHING ...
because of my selfishness . I'm sorry ..
I want you to be mine again.. I miss those laugh , i miss those craziness ,
I miss those cute fights ... but in the end , I MISS YOU ..
I miss waking up having the morning texts from you ,
I miss having you texting day and night , day by day ..
I miss we making silly faces infront of each other ,
I miss everytime you hug me , I miss everything !
I miss everything about us !
I have a question that keep repeat in my mind ..
why you still want to be friend with me huh ?
hmmmm .. I hope this friendship can work it out :)
but still , I'm glad we're still friend :)
I said I'll be there until you found your next :)
Good Luck , have a great life ..
We can save this relationship .. but you choose to give up ..
just like this . 107 days relationship ended .
I don't want it to be end just like this but you want to .
and you just leave me just like this .. hanging there alone ..
It's not fair .. How do I get down ? this isn't fun at all !
but still , I hope you find your next :')
I've no more important to you .. thank you for leaving me just like this..
thank you for loving , thank you for being there when i needed someone ,
thank you for caring , thank you for everything , but most of all
thank you for breaking me into pieces :')
I will be alright :) I suppose..... I hope... :)
Can you say one last "I Love You" to me ? just for the last ..
If you don't want It's okay too ...
6th March 2013 - 21 June 2013 Ended :')
yeah okay , this is the last time I will be such a baby . i suppose
sooooo yeap , we broke up yesterday.. yeah , I'm a messed now !
messy hair , messy feeling , messy mind , messy life !
I can't believe you just leave me like this .. you can't ! but you did...
remember the penguin question ? I know I do .. :')
you said we would be together forever .. so i just gave you all my heart..
because of we argue everytime over little things and you're tired ,
just like this ? ended ? relationships should fight for it !
you should know that you're the one who make me believe in forever .
but not anymore. i still remember everytime you ask me to don't leave you..
don't chat with boys .. don't EVER lose feeling on you .. I DONE THOSE.
but what did I get ? my heart broken into pieces .
you're the one who want to start the relationship . and now , you're the one
who want to end it too.. it doesn't make any sense ..
I admit , you really hurt me alot this time ..
still hanging there and don't know how to get down , YET .
I thought you are the one , the one that can be forever with .
but I was wrong , you're just the one that got away .
so i guess you're deleting me from you life now.. but i can't do the same..
my feeling for you is too big ! is all your fault !
why would want to say forever with me ? I'm a silly girl . trust whatever my love say .
and now , stuck in that rock and don't know how to get out .
I'm glad that you chat with me for the very first time ,
I'm glad I met you , I'm glad that I like you , I'm glad that you like me too ,
I'm glad that you ask me that penguin question , I'm glad that I accept you ,
I'm glad that we're together , I'm glad that we're sweet ,
I'm glad that I have you :') but now , I LOST EVERYTHING ...
because of my selfishness . I'm sorry ..
I want you to be mine again.. I miss those laugh , i miss those craziness ,
I miss those cute fights ... but in the end , I MISS YOU ..
I miss waking up having the morning texts from you ,
I miss having you texting day and night , day by day ..
I miss we making silly faces infront of each other ,
I miss everytime you hug me , I miss everything !
I miss everything about us !
I have a question that keep repeat in my mind ..
why you still want to be friend with me huh ?
hmmmm .. I hope this friendship can work it out :)
but still , I'm glad we're still friend :)
I said I'll be there until you found your next :)
Good Luck , have a great life ..
We can save this relationship .. but you choose to give up ..
just like this . 107 days relationship ended .
I don't want it to be end just like this but you want to .
and you just leave me just like this .. hanging there alone ..
It's not fair .. How do I get down ? this isn't fun at all !
but still , I hope you find your next :')
I've no more important to you .. thank you for leaving me just like this..
thank you for loving , thank you for being there when i needed someone ,
thank you for caring , thank you for everything , but most of all
thank you for breaking me into pieces :')
I will be alright :) I suppose..... I hope... :)
Can you say one last "I Love You" to me ? just for the last ..
If you don't want It's okay too ...
6th March 2013 - 21 June 2013 Ended :')
Saturday, 9 March 2013
9th March
Yea , It's our 6th months now if we haven't broke up . I admit that I've lost my feeling on you and fall for another boy . I'm sorry that I've hurt you and broke our promise . Since the day I broke up with you , you've always call me and even text me . today , I went to my "penguin's" house , and you called . I pick up the call and you ask where am I . when we hung up , my penguin ask who called . and I say it's u . He will be jealous you know .. owkay , i feel bad now :( so what should i do ? do you know that how my penguin feel if his gf's ex call her ? :/ well , it's kinda weird too . hmm .. and btw , it just a break up ! why you guys need to use fight to settle ? Mao lit . just because i broke up with you and be with another boy and everyone hate him ? it doesn't make any sense .
Wednesday, 23 January 2013
haters, haters everywhere
okay, so you told all of your friend about me =. =
wow, i feel so famous now. like seriously, all of your friends keep looking at me whenever they saw me.
seriously? well, hate me if you want. you're the one who "make sense" here. /.\
mao lit to argue with you. day by day and haters many by more. my gawd. rumors is spreading out fast -.-
like seriously, he is mine duhhhh. you're the one who stole my bf and now you told your friends i steal yours -.- wow, you're fucking logic. pro at making stories ah youu (Y) aiksss, really mao lit.
you know you very suk maaa? :3 don't dare to face-to-face talk to me want your friends help you to talk to me warrr? -.- adoiiii, form 3 lo :3 so suk zomooo? say me bitch warrrr, you more bitch la plssssss! my friends bu shuang you then help me der! you lea? want beg your friends help you ohhhh.. haizzzz... /.\ and btw, i with my bf ahhhh, very sweet ohhhh :3 we're still so happy together :3 4 months liao lehhhhh :D
jealous ma? jealous ma? :P i still remember last time you saw my bf come to school with me dating , walao your jealousy face ahhhhhh, i see dao so shuang :D jealous leaaaaa? :P
Honestly, i don't hate you at first. now you've cross my line and you're in the black list you black bitch!
wow, i feel so famous now. like seriously, all of your friends keep looking at me whenever they saw me.
seriously? well, hate me if you want. you're the one who "make sense" here. /.\
mao lit to argue with you. day by day and haters many by more. my gawd. rumors is spreading out fast -.-
like seriously, he is mine duhhhh. you're the one who stole my bf and now you told your friends i steal yours -.- wow, you're fucking logic. pro at making stories ah youu (Y) aiksss, really mao lit.
you know you very suk maaa? :3 don't dare to face-to-face talk to me want your friends help you to talk to me warrr? -.- adoiiii, form 3 lo :3 so suk zomooo? say me bitch warrrr, you more bitch la plssssss! my friends bu shuang you then help me der! you lea? want beg your friends help you ohhhh.. haizzzz... /.\ and btw, i with my bf ahhhh, very sweet ohhhh :3 we're still so happy together :3 4 months liao lehhhhh :D
jealous ma? jealous ma? :P i still remember last time you saw my bf come to school with me dating , walao your jealousy face ahhhhhh, i see dao so shuang :D jealous leaaaaa? :P
Honestly, i don't hate you at first. now you've cross my line and you're in the black list you black bitch!
Friday, 14 December 2012
I can't stop crying..
Day and day passed... day and day i love you more... hope you aren't cheating on me... do you remember you wrote me a letter last time? You said you promise you will never walk away from me and you wanted me to be your last lover... do you still remember that?? :')
Now i can't stop crying everyday.. i even lost my appetite...
Last time, i promise you too.. i promise you i won't give up on you and i will be with you forever... maybe i take it too serious... or am i a fool to trust it easily? Are you really mean it? I really hope you do...
Some of my friends suggest me to break up with you.. but i don't want to. I really love you... and i trust you... i just don't know why i keep crying these days... yesterday i sms with you.. you said you still love me... i'm so happy to heard that :) but please, stop calling me to give up on you... i won't give up on you.. maybe I've think too much... you're my boyfriend and I should trust you :) I love you huby...♥ too bad you don't know my blog:P
Wednesday, 12 December 2012
You're the same.
Well, okay, lately something happened.. you regret helping your friend :)
you don't want me in danger. okay, i understand. you called me don't worry and forget you for temporary.. I understand. no texts, no missed call, i understand... i only hope you to be save.. but you called me to forget you. I may really forget you and fall for other person.
okay nevermind that. i understand you didn't find me for few days or weeks.
just now, i had a nightmare.. i dream about you.. i'd lose you... when i woke up, i caught myself crying... I'm scared... i'm really really scared... i scare that i might really lose you.. u never know how much i love you. you used to said that you won't leave me alone.. and will make me happy everyday... i believed you... but now? :) i understand..
just now, you on facebook.. you said you might meet them sooner.. so i asked you to take care.. and you said see first.. you hope to die soon... okay, this really hurt me alot... i still remember that you want us to keep sweet on forever... so you want to leave me now? now i realized that you're the same.. i'm so regret to accept love again.. i really tired of crying you know... i thought you might be different.. that u will really make me happy everyday.. but you didn't.. and you make me cry eveyday :) sorry that i love you so much..
p/s, i even crying to wrote this...
you don't want me in danger. okay, i understand. you called me don't worry and forget you for temporary.. I understand. no texts, no missed call, i understand... i only hope you to be save.. but you called me to forget you. I may really forget you and fall for other person.
okay nevermind that. i understand you didn't find me for few days or weeks.
just now, i had a nightmare.. i dream about you.. i'd lose you... when i woke up, i caught myself crying... I'm scared... i'm really really scared... i scare that i might really lose you.. u never know how much i love you. you used to said that you won't leave me alone.. and will make me happy everyday... i believed you... but now? :) i understand..
just now, you on facebook.. you said you might meet them sooner.. so i asked you to take care.. and you said see first.. you hope to die soon... okay, this really hurt me alot... i still remember that you want us to keep sweet on forever... so you want to leave me now? now i realized that you're the same.. i'm so regret to accept love again.. i really tired of crying you know... i thought you might be different.. that u will really make me happy everyday.. but you didn't.. and you make me cry eveyday :) sorry that i love you so much..
p/s, i even crying to wrote this...
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