day 2

yeappp . it's day 2 that we broke up .. I keep having the same dream every night !
how to stop it ?! every time I dream about that we're still together , what we'd been through
then when i wakes up , there're tears all over my faces . what should i do ?
I'm so tired of life torturing me . why you want to make me fall so hard if you intend to leave me so fast ? you know we can just talk about it but you choose to throwing it all away . are you heartless ? or you didn't even love me from the start ? don't you miss any bit of what we had been through ? I'm now a mess . I don't know what should I do . I don't have any appetite to eat . I can't sleep at night . my mum even force me to eat but i really can't . you happy now ? seeing me like this ? now haze are everywhere in the air . I hope the end of the world coming soon . I'm so pain . there's nothing to cure it . deep inside it really hurts alot . but you intend to leave me just like this . yeah ,  i never be there when you needed someone . but thank you , for used to be mine . at least we loved , laughed , cried . tbh , i really miss those moments i spend with you .. so i guess you're starting to deleting me from your life ... I will move on someday ... but not today . someday when you found your next , and i will move on. :) soooo , just like this . the most worst I'd been hurt . yeah , by you . if you don't mean it . then you said it ? you make me trust you and it hurt really really much