BROKEN.

Well, since the day i couple with him, i think that he doesn't trust me at all... i mean.. he do trust me.. but urghhh.. nvm then.. story time.

I've already tell him many times... I'll be with him forever... but he just.. he just think that I'm same like his ex girlfriend.. that would break up with him at the end.. so, he is comparing me with his ex-girlfriend? I was abit hurt...

So, yesterday, he told me that his couch wanted him to go Hong Kong on December for one week.. that's mean he going to leave KK for one week. well, when I heard this news.. I was happy for him.. but all he said is he were damn hurt and worried.. he scared that I would leave him.. then, I text back, I said "I promise you.. I won't leave you.." then he called me.. he asked me that isn't it I sure about it.. so i said "yeah" I just really love him so much.. then we hung up.. after that, his friend use his phone to text me.. he said that my boyfriend was crying.. he really scare that I will leave him.. and He hope that I really mean it.. So my tears just roll out of my eyes.. I know he is scared but.. he doesn't trust me.. why?

so I went to find his other friend.. his friend just keep telling me that he been hurt many times and he needed time.. he just trying to cheering me up.. i know what's going on.. I know how it feel.. but can;t he think that I'm hurt too? relationship need trust you know.. well, I also been hurt once.. I been hurt deeply than him.. i refuse my feeling for a guy.. that i really love... and i refuse 4people.. i just refuse them.. how cruel am I? and i stop loving people for 9 months. how about you? you just keep finding new ones.. you're just like you never been hurt.. I'm sorry for saying this and being mean.. but it's true.. I been hurt deeply than you.. so I know that feeling.. but you just doesn't trust me.. what should I do? I think my heart is broken now.. i just don't know.. it's hurt... I cried myself to sleep.. I cried myself to woke up.. I even cried myself to write this..

you think that I'm lying? I really wanted a long lasting relationship.. I know you will give me one so I accepted you to come into my life.. If i doesn't like you at all... I won't waste my time.. I'm not that kind a girl that like to play someone's heart..

and btw, please stop over-thinking.. you will create a problem that doesn't exist at all.. I just love you, kay? I'm now just 13.. so I don't know how to prove that how much I love you.. but can you just trust me? Well, I'm your girlfriend.. you should trust me, right? (: